THEE bob dylan cant whine like this /take it on the chin

college is getting silly. im registering for yavapai...in illinois. man im lame. i dont know whats gonna happen because it actually looks like i have to be there next semester...well maybe. it looks like thatd be easier for college but now i dont know. im so indecisive. i dont want to move everything back there. i dont know. its starting to sound like NAU is the best option for me. if i went to nau then i could probably get the best education for the cheapest and it would coralate well with the rest of school ive been doing. im so confused. i think ill eventually like it here. or at least i hope so. i just dont see my future being here at all. i actually cant imagine it. i guess maybe thats how i can tell? i dont know.i think i need to get a job here first. maybe then i would be able to tell what i need to do. but ok what if ashley gave me a mangagement position in january? thatd be cool i think. i could go to NAU after that too! the whole credit system for colleges are mest up. it should be simpler than this. at least i kinda know whats going on now. if only i could figure out what im gonna do. either way i think the result is a big step towards being a hermit.
haha that just makes me think of my hermit crabs.....man i love mellville. i wonder if rissa would give them back if i came back? haha i doubt she would want them anymore. whats sad is that it wouldnt be worth talking to her to do it. hey how many people out there have had a dream where pizza eats them? thatd be a sad dream. =( id be scared.